The first pool day of summer..

yes. today, i put aside my fears and got in the pool. it was FREEZING COLD. i didn't get all the way in, just about up to my neck and then decided it was better to hang out by the side *even tho i did put my feet in. =)* this was an accomplishment for me. for those who know me well, they know i hardly use my pool. but today i did get me some sun, thank goodness. so let me tell you a little of my week. this has been the first week i've had absolutely nothing to do. aka.. AN OFFICIAL SUMMER BREAK. and it has been wonderful. my nephew, kevin, graduated kindergarten on monday. it was so cute. i dont even remember what i did tuesday. wednesday, we went up to vol state to finalize everything. sometime in the next couple weeks i'll register. even tho its just vol state, it still feels pretty cool. last night i went to church, and found out chris andrews and the mclaughlins are moving. i had no idea. so that was upsetting, and not to mention that last night was our last service for the summer. it was a good service tho. at midnight last night, me and jo went with ty and lisa to see indiana jones. it was a good movie. i haven't seen any of the other films, so i didn't know much of the story line.. but the action was pretty cool. in a week, we leave for camp. i'm pumped and absolutely cannot wait. =) and i'm reading a new book my cousin told me about. its called The Shack and its really good so far. i'll give a review when i'm done with it. =)


until next time..

<3

Competition

Competition is something i have never really believed in, but it seems as if you have to compete for everything in life. I'm not the competitive type, but it forces you to feel this way when you feel left out, like you're just not quite good enough as someone else. and of course i've heard the speech, "who you are is good enough, you're an amazing person..." about a million times. but it gets hard to believe when you're hurt. i guess the most recent time i felt like this was graduation. I found out several people who I consider very close went to other graduation parties, but didn't come to mine. This hit on the day after and I got really upset about it. Then i watched as people just became buddy/buddy and follow each other around, hardly talking to me. Thank you to those who did show friday night, whether it was because you were just making the rounds or you really cared. You helped make a night I'll never forget. This fall things are going to change. And even tho some changes might be difficult, I think most will be for the better. It's time for a change, right? Well i'm making this short today, just somewhat of how i've been feeling for the past couple of days. Its my dad's birthday today and we went out at 6 AM to ihop when he got off work. Then i came home, fell back asleep and slept completely through church, whooops. didn't mean to do that. but now its lunch time, and i'm pretty hungry.


I can't wait to go to camp.
It's like a whole different world.
Goodbye Hendersonville drama, Hello CAMP JACKSON!
=)

Just a quick post;;

So, here's an update of my life..

hm. we'll start with friday. senior assembly was so sad. the senior video was amazing and huggggge kudos to the guys and girl who created it. friday was my last official day of school. =) then saturday, we went to jo's house for lauren's 2nd birthday party. we got her the CUTEST little sandals and a pink polka dot dress. adorable. sunday was mother's day, so i hung out with mom. and at 2, the baccalaurate service was at first baptist. it was so sad. they had an open mic and me and emily got up and thanked our friends and our parents. i don't know why, but i just couldnt cry. poor emily tho, she bawled. hmmm. then today i worked and stuff and did the usual. some guy jo met on xbox live is sponsoring me through his business for my pageant. that's such a relief, since i had no idea how i was gonna raise over $400. =) tomorrow i go into work at 11. boooo. the house remodling is going great. it all should be done by friday, so our house will look wayyy different when everyone comes over after graduation. =) well, i guess this about ends it for tonight. if any of you are wondering, im sitting on my couch in the kitchen. yes, we have couches in our kitchen. lol. well my throats starting to hurt so im praying i don't get strep. that would be baddddd. 16 days until i leave for camp!!!!! halleluah. wednesday is my mom's birthday, sunday is my dad's birthday. AND wednesday is SENIOR NIGHT at church. =) can't wait for that one. My nephew graduates kindergarten a week from today. that will be so cute. my little neice just decided to join me on the couch. so i guess i'll see you guys soon.


byeeeee.

DDFFVCDE <---- from savannah banana.

Holy Crap.. I'M GRADUATING!

Isn't it crazy how you wait so long for something, but when it gets here.. you just want it all to slow down? For the past 13 years, i've been counting down the days until graduation.. and in 8 days, that day will be here. and suddenly, i don't think i'm so ready. I got my senior annual today, and its just starting to hit that this is the end. It was cool to see the colored drape picture in the senior section, sad.. but exciting to see our senior ad, and meaningful to see my parent ad.. but what really hit.. was emily's signature. now, i know you're thinking, a yearbook signature.. how is that so important? but i've just now started to realize that everything i've known for the past 17 years is all about to change. the little girls i've grown up with, have now transformed into beautiful women. i just can't believe it. in the fall, my two best friends since middle school are moving to two totally different places. they won't be with me anymore. we'll all move on and have our completely seperate lives. but like all best friends, we've made promises to keep in touch. and of course, with emily, we've made our promise to be each others maide of honor in our weddings. =) but i wonder how much of that will stay true. how much will we really talk in the future. i know those of you who are younger have heard everyone say your senior year will fly past you, so make the most of it. but its hard to believe until you've lived it. well, i'm gonna get emotional if i type on that any longer, so on to some happier things. For those of you who don't know, my mom was in the hospital because of an asthma attack from monday until today. she got out tonight, so we went to eat and just spent time together with my family. it's so different without her here, so i'm glad to have her home. I went to an open call on this past sunday for a pageant and i'm so excited to announce that i have been chosen as a State Finalist for 2008 Miss Tennessee Teen. =) My pageant is in August, and I can't wait!! I also got my schedule for camp today. i can't wait to go back to camp jack. it's like a whole new world there. and jo's working with me, so that makes everything better. =) We're remodeling our house. so far we have painted the living room and put a new floor in the kitchen. but there is so much else to come. i took some pictures of the process, so i'll try and post them soon. well, i guess that's all for tonight. love you guys. =)