Dive Right In

so they say when you go through a big change in life, you clean and organize. i guess that's true because tonight i took 2 hours to clean, and go through everything in my room. it started because dad said i needed to clean, but i didn't know how in depth i would go. people say you do this in significance of cleaning out your life to make room for new changes. the last time i cleaned my room like this was right before i left for camp. of course, camp was a huge change. and now, EVERYTHING is changing. My friends, my job, my school. It's so overwhelming. I discovered I don't handle change very well. As bad as it is, when things start to change, i stop my normal habits. I don't eat as much without me even knowing, and it made me very sick for the past week. So, as some advice, don't stop eating for a week. It isn't fun. anyways, i talked to emily tonight. so that was good. i'm glad she is happy at lee. I almost regret not going, but i guess I have to do what I felt was right for me. In 3-4 hours, I leave for myrtle beach! I can't explain how happy I am to get away from everything. Vacation couldn't have come at a better time. After vacation, I'm going to be slammed. My job and school start one day after rhe other. I'm going to work atleast 30 hours a week, and have school 2 days a week, plus have to have time for my assignments and studying. so it will be crazy. I have to learn to balance school, work, church, family, and jo. =) I guess this is the "real world". but before all that begins......


i have one week in my own little paradise.
=) be back friday night.

i love you guys.